Yesterday Sam slept all of 1.5 hours during the day. You'd think that after being up so much during the day, he'd sleep like a "baby" all night. Ha. He went down at 8:30 which he does very well at night. But, in the last several weeks he wakes up at least 2 times during the night. Some nights we are so groggy that I end up just nursing him back to sleep in our bed. This morning he'd joined us for the 2nd time around 3am. Around 4:30, Peter moved him back to his bed, (we never sleep well when he's with us). Sam proceeded to scream for an hour and a half. There was nothing wrong with him, (he'd been out just fine in our bed). He simply wanted to be in our bed. I don't generally sleep well when he's screaming, and I found myself in tears this morning and I found myself getting downright angry. I'm not one who handles lack of sleep well, and since having Sam, I've had to give up a whole lot more than I thought I would. I realize now that my selfishness is just as real as Sam's. I know that this too shall pass, and that if I will allow him to, God will give me the grace needed to live each day and night in the joy that He offers to me.
How, you ask, did I manage to type words? Well, Sam is taking his nap now, and I can't access my work due to some errors, so I have a few free minutes!
Here's a picture of our cute little booger. I've gotta admit, the cuteness sure does help!:-)

Jeremy has often said things along the lines of, "It's a good thing they're so cute, because otherwise..." ;-)
ReplyDeleteFeelin' your pain... I know it's frustrating. Keep at it, though -- this stage won't last forever. And in the meantime, God is at work weeding out some nasty corners of our hearts. (Never fun, but necessary.) Here's hoping you have a better day tomorrow. :-)