I am 2 days away from 40 weeks with baby girl, and I'm going to be very honest; I'm having a hard time with these last weeks of pregnancy! I'm a mix of upbeat resolve to wait patiently, and a mess because I'm convinced my body doesn't even know how to have this baby. I've been trying to take my kids out each day during the week (due to warm weather, small house that is even smaller now that it's been set up, waiting for baby for nearly a month, and just to keep busy). That has been wearing me out! I went to 40 weeks with my first baby, but my next three came at 37.5, 37.1 and 39.2 weeks. I have have little to no indications of impending labor with this one, just lots of pressure and discomfort. I started to struggle with insomnia at the beginning of this week. I wake up around 1 in the morning, and can't go back to sleep until 3 or 4. I've been able to read and pray a lot, and a few mornings ago a cleaned out my refrigerator at 3 in the morning. At least I felt like I was doing something. I was amazed at how easy it was to finish this project when I didn't have constant interruption. Later that morning, I tried to clean my microwave, (when everyone was up) and it took forever!
This morning I was able to get back to a fitful sleep around 1am, but woke up wide awake at 5am. So, I read for awhile, then decided to try and cut my hair a bit. I've done a bit of work on my hair before, but this morning it just didn't come out well at all. I had planned to go get my hair cut later on in the day, so I wasn't worried about my failed attempts. Here's the cut I got while out an about today:
Baby girl still seems content to hang out in my belly. I've been having contractions off and on all day today, but they seem to be slowing now, so, I'm guessing more waiting is in order.
I'm praying that she does come soon, but I also know that I can't control this, and so my prayer is that I can find a place of trust and rest while I wait. Meanwhile, I'm going to do my best to enjoy my 34th birthday today!
Your Dad and I saw Grandma Cole on Friday and Saturday. When we were there, I thought it might be nice to send her your writings. So I copied a few and will send them to her. I know she will enjoy reading about the joy and love that you communicate about your family. Love you, Mom
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